Hey bloggers iv had a good break away from my blog a lot has been happening over the last couple of months but I’m really glad to say that I’m still in good spirits. Since last time i posted listen to this, iv got a new job iv been promoted in the squash league and I’m going out on a date in the next couple of weeks, crazy i know after the last 6 months but its true. Its all a little much to take in at the minute but i hung in there and kept trying and its payed off. Right lets get right back in at the deep end and to the topic were all interested in the health anxiety, well i don’t like saying it but since iv been filling my time with more and more it feels like its been keeping it at bay. At the min I’m having a massive issue with my bones cracking and feeling stiff all the time and that dreaded lump in the throat that never goes(it was the first thing to appear all them years ago and iv got a feeling it will be the last to go if ever)but life could be worse!
The problem is still very much there trust me, I know this but iv also started to feel good about some stuff as well which is really good. Its hard to accept that your feeling a little better because of all the times iv fallen at the first hurdle, But if I’m going to crack this shit iv got to go through this period. IfI’m honest its feeling out of your comfort zone that is hard but I’m taking it in my side one step at a time. I keep trying to think of all the things iv learned over the 7 years iv been ill to help me, christ 7 years is a long time its a lot to remember stuff when you’ve been so numb. One of my main problems is i always get at myself and iv never thought much of myself especially the last years. There is a million and one things to think about but strangely health has been put back down the list. Now I’m not sure how iv done this but iv not give in and iv kept trying and believing this day will come and it feels like its coming.
A wise man once told me you can drive 10 hours through the night and cover hundreds of miles but only being able to see 20 yards in front of you with head lights, Now iv never forget this all the time iv been ill. Its so0ooooo true as well, If you have a goal and you keep your eyes on it you don’t always know how your going to get there but you do know your going to get there. This very concept has played a massive part in me getting to this point. Iv always believed I’m going to get better but believe me i didn’t know how i was going to get there, infact i still don’t :). All I’m saying is i feel I’m going in the right direction.
So back to the blog i come, My porthole to let the world learn from life and you know it makes me feel good the fact that just one person may be helped then its all worth it. Im going to blog everyday now for the next month and lets see where i can be by then. Glad to back 🙂
Lets beat mental health 