I just don’t know where to start tonight iv got that much to say, but i will open with this. This weekend has been a MASSIVE forward movement again and iv managed to enjoy myself for the first time in a long long time now thats mental. Iv just realised this very weekend that Iv been doing lots of stuff wrong still and iv now got plans to move forward in my head again. right were to start? ok iv been to show called makerfaire this weekend with my new job its a show for all new tech 3d printers is part of it ,iv been stood on a stand in the middle of the life centre in newcastle with 1000s of people coming through to view our printers and ask LOTS of questions. I do the tech side of the work repairs printing ect so i have had to answer any tech stuff that popped up. Yes you herd right iv been talking to people iv never met all day for 8 hours and I’m feeling great after 3 days of it, I’m not sure what the hells going on but it feels great. Iv always told you all about the power of attraction that i believe in and this is it happening right now!! All the years of pain iv been through trying to pop through the surface of getting a little better and quite being able too, so many failed attempts and so much negativity. Iv never give up the whole 7 years of my illness iv tried so many times but iv never give up and I’m feeling so glad i didn’t right now. It feels fantastic 🙂
Right i had to drive down with a girl from work a few years younger than me and i was dreading this before i went never mind meeting loads of strangers, but it went really well. Iv been working with alice for a few months so i do know her and get on with her but it only turns out she was mental health worker before she came to printing. As you can imagine i felt miles better knowing that about talking about stuff and we did some talking, 2.5 hours flew on way there and on way back today. Iv had the best weekend iv had for a long long time my best mate is my boss and his misses is the other girl so there was no pressure at all.
We got down there on friday about 4pm and got the stand set up and as you can imagine straight to the pub with these 3. Do i let my hair down and have a drink like the rest of them or be that anxious withdrawn lad iv been for the last 7 years? “il have a pint of strongbow then go on” and thats were it started. Im not silly no more and I’m not going to get smashed out of my head. Why should i not have drink like everyone else in life? so i did and before i knew it it was time for bed. we went out both night with the most inspirational man ever. his name is phil case and he was invited to do a speech on our company behalf because he has hacked a printer of ours to help suit wheelchair users. Phil fell off a ladder 20 years ago and broke his neck he has one had and can only bare weight on one leg his project is all about helping wheelchair users with 3d printing. This guy totally blew me away he is on all sorts of drugs and he has a lot of health problems, now this guy does not feel sorry for himself he is loving his life and thats why we as a company really want to help him. We have loaned him a printer and the stuff he has done to it is outrageous but thats another post. Phil’s partner was from Prague and does everything for him she is an absolute belter i also got on with her early well. Phil did a talk for us for about 100 people about his project and they both loved it so that me feel great i love helping people where i can.
We started on sat morn at 10 and finished at 6 and i loved every minute of it I’m going to show you some vids now so you know how cooooooooooool it really is 🙂
And here is a picture of our stall and we also won an award for best inventive stand 🙂
Im not going to write much more tonight its been a roller coaster weekend and I’m tired for the first time in ages. I know my problems are turning around a little now but i also know it can all change very quickly. I say this all the time and if your right in the middle of your dark place right now please try and take away from my blog and at least believe you can do it as well. Don’t give up!!! You can feel better and will feel better i thought i would never get better again but i never gave up trying. If your struggling from some thing and need to share with me please feel free to message and have a chat. My health anxiety will never leave me thats something iv had to give in to its still there i can feel it like the devil inside waiting to pop up but I’m managing to deal with the daily living stuff and I’m hoping its going to get even better but I’m banking in nothing!!!!!!!
Iv got some good post coming this week writing is really helping me again at this point so why the hell not turn to my blog and share it.